Happy Holi-daze!

Christmas reunion on the 24th was "virtually" uneventful. Had the usual family gathering... ate enough food for 3 people... then went home to sleep it off. After Christmas, i spent the next three days being my mom's driver and hit the malls and chinatown.

Then Wednesday came, mom woke me around 12nn (cut me some slack, I sleep at 5 am) to take her to the bank then to the hospital. My "gua-kong" (grandfather) was at the emergency room at Chinese Gen. having palpitations. We got there around 1-1.30pm coz the bank was slow (daming tao kc, last day ng bank). We found him in the ER hooked up to a cardioscope, my Aunt was with him by then.

The readings of the cardioscope looked like stock market figures -H.R.... 70... 125... 84... 175...?!

We paid for a room and waited up to 3pm till he got transferred to his room. Stubborn old coot didnt want to stay in the hospital. Sez he wants to go to Metro for a 2nd opinion (ayaw pa-confine, nag-hahanap ng excuse, ugh.) Mom finally got him to settle down.

Now the wait for my Grandma starts.

She had an "appointment" she didnt want to miss, a.k.a. "swimming" (mah-jong). We all had to cover for her. She finally arrived around 11pm. Enter Grandma:

"Ano, ok na?"
guakong (in chinese): "tingnan natin bukas sa sementeryo"

(Sarap batukan mga matatatandang 'to) Anyways, I spent the next two days in the hospital with my mom and grandma. Pag-iniiwan ako ksama lolo ko, kung anu-ano na sinasabi (in chinese lahat):

"Pwede bang lakasan yung drip (nung dextrose), para maubos na?" (... uhm...)
"Wag ka mag-aasawa ng Pilipino." (nge, big surprise)
"Tapusin mo muna pag-aaral mo, wag ka muna mag-asawa." (whatever)
"Pag-doctor ka na... pag buhay pa ko... ikaw na gagamot sakin." (ewan! sobra morbid)

He finally got released this morning. Dunno who's more relieved, him or us.

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Now, its Friday. May pasok na Monday. WHERE DID MY VACATION GO?! waaaaaaahh!!! di man lang ako naka-lakwatcha ng one last time...

makikita ko nanaman mga kalog ng UE... hehehe

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! stupid year's about to end...yay! at least we got something to look forward to.

---kzs---

Latter Days... the "other" side

Christian, a hunky West Hollywood party boy gets more than he bargains for when he tries to seduce Elder Aaron Davis, a sexually confused Mormon missionary who moves into his apartment complex. When Christian exposes Davis' secret sexual desire, Davis' rejects Christian for being shallow and empty. The encounter shatters each boy's reality and draws the two into a passionate romance that risks destroying their lives. Latter Days is a charming, sexy, and moving tale that will leave you believing in the transformational power of love.***

nope, I'm not making this up. Its the plot of the movie Latter Days, which I recently watched on dvd. I'm not really into romantic movies but I was curious... (hehehe) IT HAS A GAY THEME! (duh) which made it interesting, and instead of the usual girl/girl makeout scenes that hollywood likes to stick in movies, it has... well, you get the idea.

Honestly, I watched it 'coz i was really curious, most romantic films that have heterosexual protagonists have the usual boring plots - they meet (bump) each other, take one look, falls in looove, spends the rest of the movie either

1) doing stupid stuff to get him/her to fall in love, or
2) defying odds/destiny/their families/etc just to be together.

You've seen one romantic flick, you've seen 'em all. I mean, how many new twists can people come up with just to make romantic films interesting?

ENTER: 2 males - kissing scenes, SEX scenes (not explicit, but... hehehe.)

Anyways, I actually didnt think they could make this flick work... dont get me wrong, i'm not a homophobic bigot, but I thought that a movie with homosexual male characters might not effectively show "romantic" love without making it look, well, either brotherly or skanky. This movie was a surprise though - they actually made it work, made the love between these two people seem... natural, normal. It gives "straight" people a peek into the UNKNOWN or at least challege their preconceived notions on homosexual relationships. Its a good movie, not OSCAR-winning good, more like Teen's Choice Awards. But at least it didnt suck too much (no pun intended).

***got this off the back of the dvd

-kzs-

Fict-ure of us...

kzs and eDz, at a cousin's debut... sino mas maganda? Comment kayo! paramihan... hehehe

NARCOLEPSY... or whatever!

I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm.
And there's a demon in my brain, that starts to overwhelm,
And there it goes, my last chance for peace,
I lay me down, But I get no release.

I try to keep awake, I try to swim beneath,
But still I find this narcolepsy slide,
Into another nightmare.

And there's a demon in my head,
Who starts to play,
A nightmare tape loop
of what went wrong yesterday,
And I hold my breath
'Till it's more than I can take,
And I close my eyes; I dream that I'm awake.

I try to keep awake, I try to keep awake
But still I find this Narcolepsy slides
Into another nightmare...
*~ 3rd Eye Blind, Narcolepsy ~*

grabe, past few days talaga ganito feeling ko, and not just coz of that stupid DA i got in MS-HN... I just feel more stoned than usual... not depressed, but stoned.

stoned = brain dont work... dont particularly feel anything... reality has yet to catch up... *stares off into space, sleeps into oblivion*


why HAVE been I feeling like this lately? 'coz Christmas is near? biological clock ticking? (god, I hope not! hehe) PMS? Stress? Constipation? (wahahaha!) or maybe i've always been like this... *sigh*


somebody... wake me up! please!

-kzs-

Crappy looong "weekend"

wtf!? i'm not "supposed" to be DOING anything! 2 days of suspended classes... added to sat and sun... I ought to be grateful, instead...

@$#^$&*%*(^@#!


I hate having work dumped on me! I just know I'm gonna cram it the night before classes anyways... SH*T! I always get the short end of the stick.

I thought college . . . . sucked.

I thought I was over my homicidal tendencies.

hellooo med school.

kzs

SABADO

8:00 am

Saturday again... hooray for the looooong weekend!

It means that i dont have to study till Sunday.

I can waste my whole Saturday! Woohoo!

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5:00 pm

Ugh... spent the day playing MU Online with my sisters at the nearest net cafe... turned out ok, had fun, enjoyed ourselves.... till we went to pay for the time we spent playing.

we were the only females in the whole establishment.

yuck lang... nag-fifeeling yung manong na nagbabantay ng counter.

---kzs---

Uh... sure...

Napansin nyo ba na pag ang tatay mo nag-inarte ok lang kahit di mo ganong pansinin? Mawawala rin yun.


Pero pag ang nanay mo ang tinamaan ng sumpong... parang may nagawa kang isang malaking "kamalian-na-pwedeng-magtapon-sayo-sa-impyernong" kasalanan. Di mo ma-tanggihan.



Mababaw lang pero...


Kaka-uwi mo lang at hihingi ng pabor... walang kwenta ang mga batugan mong kapatid... sayo nanaman umaasa...

cge, ok lang.


uto-uto talaga ako.


Its now past 10pm. I just spent more than an hour sticking footprints around the floor of my mom's kindergarten classroom... dont ask.

---KZS---

Trapped

Have you ever been in an inescapable situation? where you feel like you just want to kill yourself just to get out of it? something sooo dreadfully horrible that most kids would rather fake illness than go through it? Yes, i am talking about....

the family road trip.


there's nothing like being locked in a car with your whole family in a Manila traffic jam... its a whole bonding experience all to itself. Especially when your dad's a real "character".

But this time, its unavoidable. we have to go to the cemetery. ARGH!


the whole ride to Parañaque-Manila Memorial, Pa's questions revolved around:

"ano sabi mga kaklase mo sa tatay mo? Gwapo daw? gwapo? Parang kuya daw?..."
"Gusto mo nanay mo si Ara Mina nalang?..."
"anong ligaw-ligaw?! hindi pwede! ako ligaw sa nanay nya gusto mo?..."
"oi tanda, sinisira mo lelationship namin ng anak mo..." (to mom, pag pinapatigil kakulitan nya)
"Pogi ba tatay mo? pogi?"

when you've memorized his whole spiel, then you know something's wrong...
*sigh*


--- KZS ---

GHosts...

wala lang... for Halloween katuwaan...

I have this prayer... that i never, EVER, want to see ghosts or anything supernatural... my sister, eDz, sees 'em sometimes so i figured, one is enough for our family.

so bakit ka nagpakita?!

last tuesday night, i came home tired from a bball game and had just parked my car under a tree in front of my house. now i have this weird habit of polishing my black shoes before leaving them in the car... tsinelas lang ako pag nag-mamaneho... anyways, i was doing just that- polishing my shoes standing outside beside my car... lagpas na ng 9.30 so wlang gaanong sasakyan dumadaan... tapos i "thought" i saw a girl wearing white under the tree... pero nung tiningnan ko, wala naman. thinking that i was just too tired... i continued polishing my shoe (yah yah, weirdo, i know...) tapos kala ko nakita ko nanaman... pero wala naman... this happened 3 times.

since i was a sensible apathetic med student (hehehe) i attributed this apparition as a figment of my overstressed and fatigued brain.

pero naisip ko rin "i better ask eDz if she ever sees anything under that tree...". yun nga lang, sa pagod ko, i forgot all about it and just went to bed.

wednesday night.

eDz was in mom's room watching telenovelas and we got to talking about stuff. then she suddenly remembered something that she wanted to tell me... and i remembered the thing i wanted to ask her...

"chi, may tatanong ako syo..."

"-- wait! ako muna! may nakikita ka ba ever sa ilalim ng puno sa harap ng gate? babae? na naka-white?..."

while i was saying this, eDz suddenly gripped both my hands...

"chi, pano mo nalaman?! sakto description mo...?"

it seems that that afternoon, on her way home from school, eDz saw a girl wearing white looking through our front gate... she thought it was one of our friends waiting outside the gate (coz it looked like she was looking for someone, shet) or me wearing my white uniform. but when she drew near, there was no one there.

eDz was gonna ask me if we had visitors that afternoon. damn.

we didnt get much sleep that night. bangag nanaman ako ng thursday. argh.

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naisip ko lang... kamusta na kaya si Aubs at Garet? nakaka-curious yung mga gamit na pinapadala ng Days sa kanila...

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kailan kaya namin bibisitahin yung younger bros ko? sayang talaga yung kambal na yun.

i better burn more paper money for them... mga 20yrs old na dapat sila ngayon... ma-chicks na age. hehehe

--- KZS ---