My Sack-of-Rice

hay naku. typical. My father cant be depended on to pick up my Mom's year end free 50kg sack of rice from the rice dealer. Malamang the chore drops down to me. Again.

And as it so happens, we're out of rice. hahahaha. I had to pick it up this afternoon. Vwiset.

I dragged my younger sis along, she also has a free 25kg sack from the school for working part time as a scouting instructor, thank God its the same school as my mom, one rice run is enough.

I was contemplating ways of making the 50kg sack easier to carry into the house. The 25kg was easy, i figured me and my sis can carry it. But 50kg was another matter. I wished I had a set of bros instead of sisters... or maybe a gullible boyfriend. *sigh* whatevs.

I was running ideas through my sis, like, maybe we can convince the dealer to give us the 50kg in fifty-1kg sacks? wahahahaha that'll piss my mom off. Or maybe I can borrow one of their workers for a while... or maybe two-25kg sacks will be easier? Anyways, I ended up just taking the damn 50kg sack, I could just ask my dad to carry it in. haay....

We got home early enough, the two of us dragging/carrying the 25kg sack in first. The priority was dinner so we used the 25kg sack first and left the 50kg in the trunk of the car. Mom was happy, thats good. After dinner, I asked her about the rice in my trunk. She told me to ask dad. hahahahaha right! oh well. He told us he'll do it the next day. I have classes! An exam even! I hafta bring the sack along?! its a waste of my gas! crap.

Then mom had the idea of carrying it in. Ourselves. A fifty-yr old, a twenty-two yr old, and a nineteen-yr old. females. I was opposed to the idea. It was already PAST 10pm, my car was parked OUTSIDE, IT WAS A 50kg SACK OF RICE, plus we'll look real stupid. I'd rather bring the thing to school and waste gas. But the idea already took root and grew dumber. She wouldnt listen, and my sis wasnt opposed to the idea. I guess I'm the only one who has any sense. So i popped open the trunk...

SHET it was HEAVY. It took the three of us to lift it out of the trunk. (for those who have been to my house, you can imagine the distance between my car parked outside and the door to the house) Okay. Step one done. The sack of rice is now sitting in the road behind the car. Now what? I'll carry the "head", my mom will carry the "legs" (its her idea, let her suffer)

We had barely moved two steps when IT HIT. my mom and my sis... they started laughing... mom dropped the whole thing on my feet, which made them laugh more... ara-ouch!... then i started to laugh too. Mom started explaining... she thought it was funny... three females carrying a sack of rice in the middle of the night... and herself around 50 yrs old...

So, there's no way of carrying the damned sack in now, all of us were in a "fit of the giggles"... mom tilted the sack to its side and started "rolling" it toward the gate. My sis started helping her, it looked really stupid and I was laughing so hard to be of any help... which started them laughing. My mom kept saying the "rolling" would work, i keep telling them it wont, so i just stayed on the sidelines "supervising/laughing". Not my idea. Bhala sila.

... when they got it near the door, i got the floor mat and held the door open. After they got the thing on the floor mat, I dragged the whole thing to the kitchen (think: blanket drag from Red Cross traning bwahahahaha!). Mom was still laughing... but she was glad i got that thing to the kitchen: "I didnt raise no stupid children, ha... masakit na likod ko... oi hilutin mo ko, hihilutin kita..."

whatevs. All I know...

my genes are twisted.

---kzs---

Quirks

Well, I guess everyone has 'em. But I realize that some of my own personal eccentricities are unique.

I probably wont reveal all of 'em here (yuck bare my soul daw hahaha)
I'll mention a few. Its part of my "how to alienate friends and win weirdos" campaign.

1. I dont like being in the direct line of the electric fan.

2. I sometimes sleep with 4 layers of blankets. kahit mainit. wla lang.

3. I like to bathe with hot (not warm) water. Its the temp. between "bearable" and "scalding".

4. I listen to 98.7 DZFE, The Master's Touch every morning at the start of the day on the drive to school... and during that time no one can talk in the car while I'm driving or I get real pissed. (its my personal "shut-up-I'm- ~~~~~~~" time hehehe)

5. I only use tomato based ketchup... banana ketchup is weird. (yellow ang banana bakit red ang banana ketchup? ahhh, basta.)

6. I compulsively check my email before I leave the house. (except weekends, I check before i sleep.)

7. I wear my ring on the thumb kasi istorbo between the fingers. (I know, i know, why wear a ring at all?... ewan.)

8. I am not fond of chocolates. I eat chocolates, but I am not fond of them. (i only eat certain "types")

9. I dont use/answer the landline. Its a childhood phobia. I dont order food/deliveries on the landline. I need to know beforehand who i'm gonna talk to if/when/before I use the landline. I use a cellphone or none at all.

10. I drink Sprite most of the time, not because I like it, but coz it feels "safer". (hey, it looks like water... )


humans arent supposed to be rational anyway.

i thought, therefore, i think...

---kzs---

Friends and Friendster and post-Nov. 1 moonies

Haaay grabe. I was looking through my Friendster acct (the one I hadnt touched for 2 months) and I felt like fixing up my profiles page, maybe messing with the new opts... putting in a music video for good measure...

then I started reading all the old testi's that my friends wrote me.

Scrolling through them, I was thinking... "Damn! I got good taste choosing in friends... hehehe..." (yabang!) I cant really be this insane-booklover-weirdo-nice-cool-great-girl that these seriously misguided people I call my friends were trying to sell to potential Friendster browsers.

*Sigh* I miss all those insane folks.

The last in the list was the first (and so far the best) ever testi that I approved, the one written by my best friend.(aaaaaw...)

Jasmin, Monday, October 20, 2003:
kriszia is someone i could never afford to wage war with. why? 'cause she knows me too much... and i just know she'll use those sensitive secrets for revenge. :) seriously, kriszia is the most cynical person i know. she claims to have no heart, no emotion.. but i know better. behind that sarcasm lies a girl with compassion and generosity to her peers and loved ones. uncover the mask and you'll see a woman molded with fortitude through the pains of family struggles and triumphs. she scoffs at trivial nuisances 'cause she knows what true anguish is, and how to survive without leaving a scar. and she covers her feelings with protective strength for what she keeps inside is much to be treasured and only right to be guarded passionately- hidden is a heart tested through time and a love that can only be showered on the one who truly deserves such priviledge and such joy. we became friends because of chance. we becames allies out of family crisis. but we became sisters because of shared souls, shared experiences, and shared grief. people who have come to know her are very lucky to have encountered the amiable version. but for those unfortunate ones who came across the evil side, i hope they're still alive (or willing to live). very complex and resilient, that's what she is. and knowing her makes life a little more interesting, and even more fun. for those of you who still don't know her,patiently wait your turn. the girl only has so much time, and she needs at least 20 hours of sleep a day. the other hours are for reading. so wait in line. or you woudn't know what you're missing. 'cause surely, she wouldn't miss you.

o di bah?! lufet!!! awww shucks. after reading this, I forgot all about fixing my Friendster and started on a blog entry instead. I still havent met anyone (not of blood kin) who knows me this well. I'll probably marry the first GUY who gets even remotely close to this. (yeah, right. wahahahahaha!)

when I made a Friendster acct, I swore to forego QUANTITY over QUALITY. Suffice it to say that I only ever approve people that I actually know.

I may never have a bulletin post with a "1st acct FULL add me up in my 2nd acct ~~~@yahoo.com... blahblahs" not unless i got more than 500 actual friends with accts.

But looking at my "friends" list... *sigh* it does a heart good.

Its probably people like me that'll eventually bankrupt Friendster. =)
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Mats,
If ever I die before you do...
I'll save you some trouble...
you could re-use this as your eulogy...
but I want you to at least memorize it...
think of me...

and recite it...
or rather...
sing it...

to the tune of the BEAM song.

ROFL!! sadista ako, remember? wahahahaha

---kzs---

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

I'm currently under the process of revamping my blog layout... I removed all my posts for that purpose.

Check back in a week or two (or a MONTH maybe) for my new layout. Till then you could mess with my tagboard. hehehe

---kzs---

Horoscopes and whatnot

wow. I'm impressed. and I thought FRIENDSTER just writes random vague predictions for their daily horoscope. I might've been just as impressed with "... its gonna rain today..."

This is just too weird and coincidental for comfort.

I just spent the past few hours ranting about the shallowness, immaturity and insensitive cruelty of some people. I was getting tired of the usual nonsense "issues" that people seem to enjoy. I was thinking of making a stand... (I grew a moral conscience as a side effect of the migraine I was nursing yesterday, dunno why) and wondering on how to go about it. I'll probably look like a hypocrite IF? and when? I do make a reaction, but its gone on for far too long. I'm ashamed of myself for being a part of it -however passive I was, because I let it happen. Crap. Dumb. Stupid. Idiot. Its too early for me to offend people, i usually keep my temper TIGHTLY reined in. I promised my mom I would. (if people only knew how volatile it is... bwahahahaha!) But I've been having problems recently... **.m.ust..*...kee.p*...*th.e...HULK...*i.n** bite tongue, swallow retorts** Turn temper into endothelial injury, grow atheroscerotic plaque/s... die of M.I.

serves me right.




**sigh**

and just in case people think they know what I'm all about...

I'll end this with a tired, old quote:


"to ASSUME makes an ASS of U and ME."


---kzs---

Hark, What Light Through Yonder Window Breaks?...

... it is the Sun, and ....

?!!??!??!?

oh crap. di nanaman ako na-gising for school...
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I think I have a sleeping disorder. probably narcolepsy.

I'm serious...

... being the med student that I was, I actually did some research. I was searching through the net for possible stuff that could match up with my symptoms, "differential diagnosis" and all that shit. narcolepsy tlaga lumalabas.

Narcolepsy is a chronic sleep disorder with no known cause.
The main characteristic of narcolepsy is excessive and overwhelming daytime
sleepiness, even after adequate nighttime sleep. A person with narcolepsy is
likely to become drowsy or to fall asleep, often at inappropriate times and
places. Daytime sleep attacks may occur with or without warning and may be
irresistible. These attacks can occur repeatedly in a single day. Drowsiness may
persist for prolonged periods of time. In addition, nighttime sleep may be
fragmented with frequent wakenings.

I also got this link that says I'm high risk, I got around 5...
http://www.drugdigest.org/DD/HRA/SleepDisorders/1,21884,,00.html

I also got real bad insomnia... the worst was when i stayed awake for about 6 hours just waiting to fall asleep. 3am na ko tinamaan ng antok... and I had to get up 6.30 am for class.

maybe it'll pass like it had before. or maybe not. I really need some sleep. I constantly sound like a cross between a drunk and an addict. I cant stay awake in class... I cant focus... most will argue that I've always been like this, but maybe my "weirdness" isnt normal...

or maybe this is nothing... maybe I'm ok and just stressed... or maybe all the med exposure has turned me into a hypochondriac...


aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!



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Ang tagal nman bago mag sem break! gusto ko nang umalis! w/o worries! even if its only for two weeks, blessing na yun...

I'm looking forward to two weeks of staring catatonic into space...

---kzs---

SOLO

I desperately needed a break last week. I dont really know WHY... but for some reason, I wanted to do SOMETHING.

I tried to organize a get-together but the kada is uber busy nowadays... UST Med must be hell. Perps must be hell. Canada... uhm, err... ehehehe.

...would that make UERM, heaven?

whatevs.

so I just got frustrated and decided to do something I hadnt done in a while.

come Saturday, I watched a movie ALONE.

I asked some friends once if they've tried it. Some said they can eat alone, shop alone, etc but a movie, solo?... "only guys do that..."

uh.... whatevs.
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I like getting lost sometimes. I get in my car with no direction and just start driving somewhere, anywhere. no plans. just... drive.

I usually end up in a mall. I park, walk around, and... observe people with other stuff to do, knowing I myself could just stand there all day. I like having no plans... feels free, like I have all the time in the world and I dont have readings to catch up on, exams to study for... etc.
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Campus Ghost Stories looked like a "B" movie in the commercials, but I chanced it anyway. It sucked. Not that much, but, uh, well, okay... it sucked. Probably coz of all those high school kids watching. They had their cellphones up trying to take picts of the ghost in the movie. Someone would scream when there's a change in music. ugh. They dont even wait for the ghost to come out. And when the ghost did show, some !@#$ kid screaming "Si Mahal, si Mahal!, aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!! " ruined it for me.

*sigh*

Mabuhay ang Pilipinas.

---kzs---

When I still had money...

... I didnt need nor want anything. But again, as usual, after I spent it all on our horrendously expensive med books, naglabasan na mga gusto kong bilhin/ pgka-gastusan.

Neil Gaiman will be at Gateway sa July 11, if you buy a book you can have it autographed...

Hangang July 4 nlang mga gusto kong cash avatars sa GB...

May concert Good Charlotte sa July 8...

May double promo for the load ulit ang MU from July 15-31...

Wala pa akong Bates and Katzung...

bwishet. (bwiset and shet)
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I attended another EB at Megamall... too bad I didnt stay long, my cuz unexpectedly needed company... I got a free dinner and movie out of it though! hehehe

My insane cousin convinced me to ride the mini coaster with her at Megamall (I didnt even know they had one)... we passed the arcade area and the kiddie trains and she suddenly wanted to ride something. thank God ung coaster at di yung kiddie train. lintek, nakita na nga ako sa Manila Zoo, makikita pa ko nakasakay sa kiddie train... how the hell do I explain THAT?! hehehe

oh well. It was fun, ang tagal ng ikot... feeling ko nka 7-10 times ikot nun (nkalimutan na ata ng attendant na may sakay eh... ANG TAGAL... kala ko d n mtatapos) after the 'n'th ikot, we ran out of stuff to scream and shout. Somehow, "Darna!" gets boring after a while.

... naiwan ko lahat ng stock knowledge ko dun... na-displace lahat ng organs ko from the right to my left... waaaaaaah I miss being a kid again... ang saya! wheeeeeee!!!!
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Afterwards we watched Hotel Rwanda. No choice. Napanood na namin lahat ng nandun. Either Hotel Rwanda or Happily Ever After or Nasaan Ka Man. haha. Not a difficult decision.

Peeps, panoorin nyo Hotel Rwanda. No wonder it had so many awards and nominations. Grabe, ok cya. Based on a true story.

It gave me a conscience.

Watch it.

Then ride the coaster afterwards.

kung hinde matutulad kyo sakin...

Tonight, I have decided to dedicate my life to the U.N. / Red Cross and other humanitarian organizations....

tonight lang...

until apathy returns...

---kzs---

Burnout?

I still cant feel ANYTHING.

Ever since school started... I feel like I've been floating through classes... tutorials... life.

The first module is almost over, and I still cant seem to bring myself to care about my grades... I can't feel the TENSION... the STRESS... shit.

I think I had one summer class too many. I should've just applied for leave of absence this year... but I didnt want to be laid back a year from my batch.

I've been unconsciously isolating myself from life in general... getting lost in music and books. When I go through class or walk through UE, my headset is blaring something in my ear... or my head is playing back something I've heard... or I'm thinking about something I've read or seen... that's when people see the "semi-dazed blank look" on my face. and the fact that I was sick the past week and on meds doesnt help.

SOMETHING has to snap soon. Yoko bumagsak ng IAP.
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thanks sa mga bday greetings last week. sorry wla akong ni-rep sa txts. I was sick, I felt crappy and I wasnt in the mood to celebrate.
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I'll let you all in my head a bit...

my sis gave me a cd for my bday... this is one of the songs in it. the one that keeps giving me the Last Song Syndrome (LSS)...

Kill -Jimmy Eat World

You're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes around by chance
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me
You always know
the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away

I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up, put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmiser song goes:
'It's just like being alone...'

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me
You've got some nerve
but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do but I just can't turn away

I can't help it baby
This is who I am
Sorry but I can't just go
turn off how I feel
You kill me
You build me up but just to watch me break
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away.

and no, im not in love nor mooning over some guy. hahaha. LSS lang to. I got enough problems of my own, 40% of which are imaginary...

---kzs---

Movie Trip

Sunday. Lapit na pasukan. One week nalang. Kala ko free ako today, I was gonna hang out with my best friend and borrow books (wla kc nag-aalok ng lakwatcha eh, hmph!). Mag-babasa nlng sana ako this week (sori, manang ako =p). But I had to cancel.

For the first time in a very loooong time... nag-alok yung Dad ko ng "family lakwatcha". Sobrang busy kming lahat this summer, kanya-kanyang lakad... ngayon lng kmi lumabas ulit as a family.

Di dapat ako sasama eh, kya lang wlang pagkain sa bahay... so I went. We ate lunch at Tempura and astounded the waiters by ordering (and finishing off) a whole mess of food- and to think 5 out of 6 of us were females... but we eat like a ravenous basketball team. (according to Mom, dont take our dates to our family dinners... bka matakot! hehehe) I tried Wasabe ICE CREAM for the first time... it was... uhm... an acquired taste. hehehe

Then we went to RP where my Dad shocked us by saying he wanted to watch a movie! This may be a normal occurence in most families... but my Dad is an old-school chinese dude. Meaning: no eat fastfood- burgers pizzas spaghetti... no watch movies (except ones in chinese)... no understand english much... no boyfriends (hahaha)... etc etc.

Me: Ha?! Nood ka sine?!?
sis: hindi yan, bka iiwan nya tayo sa mall, may-mmeet yan...
Dad: Oo nga nood ako! Bat ayaw nyo niwala? Nood ako tagalok... (di kc mka-intindi ng english.. )
sis: anong tagalog?
Dad: Kahit ano sine! basta tagalok! Sino sama sakin?
Me: ako, sama ako... at si san... (heck, I was curious... and my dad is too nuts to be left alone)
Dad: saan na sinehan? punta na tayo...

we went to the RP movie theatre... there was a row of movie posters... trying to decide what to watch...

unfortunately, dalawa lang ang tagalog films. La Visa Loca & Bikini Open

Dad: ayaw ko yan! kita mo bastos... hubad hubad babae... (pointing to Bikini Open poster)
Me: so La Visa Loca na? (spare us, tanda na namin noh, as if d pa kmi nakanood ng ganyan...)
sis: Pa, pag di mo kami kasama, manonood ka ba nyan? (points to Bikini Open)
Dad: ayaw! bastos! kita mo hubad, pangit! Bili ka na tiket! (points to La Visa)
(hmmm.. ewan! maniwala kami... haha.)

Then he started wandering around the place... I quickly gave money to my sis to buy tickets and FOLLOWED him before he did something outrageous. I think he does it to mess with us. Shet. Lapit siya sa Tea Square and ordered a "natulal ice tea", took the drink and walked off... ako bayad. (Bwiset! I had to pay for our tickets AND drinks AND popcorn! bastos talaga tatay ko... ma-singil nga nanay ko... wahahahaha!)

I wasnt really looking forward to watching the movie. I'm not fond of tagalog movies. Corny eh... its like watching Spongebob Squarepants, pero wlang story. I already lowered my expectations for the movie... pero dapat pla natulog nalang ako. Sure, like most movies, it has its "moments"... pero la kwenta. As in. Mejo katawa ung ibang parts pero... whatevs! Or sobra lang akong O.C. Ewan! Sayang pera. Crap. Natulog lang naman Dad ko through most of it anyway... Maybe if we watched Bikini Open, we could've at least drooled over the bodies of the actors! wahehehe...

We met up with Mom afterwards and wandered around the mall... pinagod namin sarili namin bago kami umuwi. It was another typical family outing with my clan.

Now I need to clear my head. Ugh!
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wala bang mag-aalok sakin ng lakad? ha? please naman?!
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Mats, wag nman next weekend... pag free ka weekdays kita tayo...have mercy!!!! Magkaka-radiation poisoning na ko sa kakaharap sa PC at TV...

---kzs---

Finished.

natapos din ang 5 weeks namin sa MS. all we have to do now is wait. kung pasa, 2nd yr... kung nde, debarred.... hirap mghintay.
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ANNOUNCEMENT:

LAHAT NG GIMIKERo-a / LAKWATCHERo-a / MAY GIMIK / MAY LAKAD - TAWAGAN NYO KO! ALIS TAYO! 2 weeks nalang!...

nyahaha!
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Ang lakas ng loob ko makipag-EB ng solo. Group EB nman so I figured ok lang. (and yes, nakikipag-EB na ko ngayon!) Times have changed. Dati anti-EB ako... ngayon, sino-solo ko na. Iniisip ko kasi, lahat ng kilala ko puro may connection sa school/Med... I needed a change... meet new people... etc etc

Ang saya pala! I should do it more often! Matitino pla mga forumers/naglalaro ng MU... nag-enjoy ako.
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Hmmm... 2 more weeks... should I cut my hair and dye it red again? or blond? or green? Pwede ba pumayat in 2 weeks? Mag-papapayat ba ko? Mag-babasa na ba ako ng Jawetz? Mag-aadik mode sa PC? Mag-linis na kya ako ng kwarto? Movie marathon? Food trip? Road trip? Mang-trip? ano ba?

decisions, decisions...
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natutuwa nnman ako kay natalie imbruglia... balik nnman ang appeal ng mga songs nya sakin for some reason...

---kzs---

wth?!

I knew it... but I didnt expect to be THIS bad...

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Fifth Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Very High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's" Divine Comedy Inferno Test

Lapit na matapos!

Third week's over! wahahahahahaha! 2 more weeks and I'm free!!!!

OK nman so far ang exams namin... mahirap pa rin ang tutorials since separate tutorials for bchem/ana/physio. You have to prepare for each. Ugh. At least Dr. Jerez sa physio... hehehehe.
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OO nga pla... one of the boyz nanaman ako. Kasama ko lagi si Emman, Hallmark, Matt, and Job. And as they say... kami na ata ang best among the worst. Isipin nyo naman, sa lahat ng modules na pwedeng ibagsak at i-summer, kami lang ang sumabit sa NEURO at MS. 17k ang binayad namin, mas lugi pa ang nagbayad ng 17k for a 3 wk module, at least nilubos namin... 5-6wks kami. wahahahaha! (na-prapraning na ko..)
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Makulit rin pla si Emman?! It seems that when there's a lack of topics to to talk about, he inevitably turns our discussions to my love life (or my "lack" of it). Most of the time, I think I just wanna hit him... (peace tayo emman hehehe )

It started with the "usual" question, the one that inevitably starts trouble...
"bakit wala ka pang boyfriend?"
My "usual" answer...
"kasi yoko pa..."

"choice mo ba yun?..." (wth?! what was THAT supposed to mean??)
"huh?"
"I mean, di ba lalaki ang nanliligaw?"
"kaya?! "
"no, I mean lalaki ang nanliligaw, kya di mo choice yun, unless ikaw ang nanliligaw?"
"hinde, eh kung di sagutin ng girl yung guy?! bakit??! manligaw lang yung guy oo na agad? choice pa rin yun ng girl!!!... " (grrr... may pgka-chauvinist pla si emman... )

then he gets into a short tirade 'bout how I should make an effort to be more... girly? gurlash? approachable? something about me being "intimidating/agressive" hindi raw ako maliligawan nyan. tpos joke cya na sana raw wag ako ma-tibo. (at this point.. di ko sure whether to laugh or start bashing his head in )

Sa akin nman, I have a family. I have school. I have great friends. Meaning, I already have a busy life. There's room for a BF in there if one finally manages to squeeze past my defenses... pero mahirap yun. Feeling ko nga may betting pool na ang mga friends ko bout the guy who's finally gonna subdue me. I have the inordinate feeling na hinihintay ng lahat ang time na ma-meet ko yung "katapat" ko. (ayan na, paranoia is setting in...)

Honestly, its hard to feel the need for a boyfriend when I feel na mas-macho pa ko than most guys I know. (totoo naman eh, di ba? ) I have a car, I dont have a curfew, and my parents generally give free rein to what I want to do... they know I'm old enough to have a mind of my own.

ahhh basta, ewan! stupid, disturbing thoughts...

---kzs---

Week 1

MS is harder the second time around.
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All my fears had been confirmed. I HAVE to be afraid. Failing is a very real possibility, one that I wont accept.

Our sched is from 8am-12nn, Monday-Friday. Hey, 4 hours? No sweat... not.

We get 2 hours of tutorials and 2 hours of... whatever (lab, bchem, physio). We got half the day to prepare for the next day's class. No probs, time enough for that.

But you have to look at the "summer vacation" factor... it makes you want to procrastinate. We got trans and old notes anyways...

So the first week basically went like this:

Monday- orientation (got there at 10 am, made us wait till 1 pm, seatwork till 4 pm) , got home, slept.

Tuesday- in by 10 am, grilled by Dr. Quijano till 12 nn (mai-inlove na ko kay emman, titigan lang kami lagi pag may tanong c ma'am na di namin masagot... out of the 2 hrs, mga 15+ mins nasayang namin sa ganun) tpos got home, driver ng pamilya... was able to rest by 9 pm

Wednesday- in by 8 am, lab "kuno"... stayed till 11.30 am, la naman bantay eh, pag-uwi, basa for the next day... nood dvds... kain sa Icebergs, uwi mga 10.30 pm

Thursday- in by 8 am, met Dr. Madarcos for bchem (kami ang nag-lec, grabe... la nanaman kmi masabi) after that, met Dr. Quijano for tutorials (@_@ ewan... I never felt so drained), went out to have car cleaned, had lunch around 3 pm... slept till 9 pm, tapos nood ng Wrestlemania 21 till 11.30 pm (ganda katawan ni John Cena... *drool* wahahahaha). aral till 2am tpos tulog ulit.

Friday- in by 9 am, waited till 10 am (breakfast w/emman at McDo), tapos ginisa nanaman ni Dr. Quijano (grabe, galing nya... feeling ko ang bobo ko... wrestling lang alam ko hehehe)

*sigh* as ya'll can see... I have problems with TIME MANAGEMENT. wahahahaha. ano ba 'to...

I hope I do better next week.
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Belated Happy B-day to Ate April... sori d ako naka-dalo nung Friday...

---kzs---

Ramblings

The past few days were virtually uneventful. I've nothing to blog about. I'm semi-kinda-maybe looking forward to summer classes, it breaks the monotony of my vacation. I went to enroll this morning, saw Dr. Quijano, who requested/commanded me to read on cartilage and bone and stuff. My first official assignment- and we havent even started yet! I knew she was gonna be a slave driver! hehehe. Sayang, di cya pumayag na sa beach mag tutorials. (yes, I asked. oh well.)

bwahahahaha!
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Tagal ko na rin di lumalabas. It was nice to be able to go out, watch a movie again (ok ang Finding Neverland). I used to have a movie date once a week, but that stopped after med. Coding ako kaya gabi na naka-uwi. It was fun though. Especially when I was about to go home... I couldnt find my car! and since I removed the alarm, I knew wouldnt be able to find it 'coz it wouldnt make a sound. Freaked me out!

then I remembered... I was at the wrong parking level. !$@*(^%#!!!

vacation dulls the brain.
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My vacation cycle is back. Most people wonder why I usually dont reply to texts, dont go out much, dont get a tan, dont get exercise, etc.

well, my circadian rhythm is like a vampire's. I sleep all day/ awake at ungodly hours of the night. I also usually just eat one meal a day pag bakasyon. ok di ba? I love the night, its so cool and quiet. Mornings are too hot, and the shows on TV are boring.

I'm awake from 1 or 2 pm till about 3 to 5 am. Try texting me at around those times, usually you'll get a reply. I dont reply to txts coz by the time I see the messages on my cell, its too late for me to reply.

Kaya kung may planong lakwatcha, sabihin nyo ng maaga!

**pag simula ng summer class, back to "bangag-zombie-I-need-coffee-in-the-morning" mode nanaman ako. sana pwede night school. (eh di lalo akong pinatay ni Quijano? hehehe)
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tama na to, my craziness is leaking out...

---ksz---

There's a rainbow always after the rain (or vice-versa?)

Monday April 11,2005 8:00 AM

I was going to UE later to check if I passed the renal removals.

that was BEFORE Dra.Quijano CALLED me on my landline.

she called to INFORM me that the promo board already had a meeting, and that I was QUALIFIED to take the MS module this summer. You can only take one module in the summer so I probably passsed RENAL. (wait, WAIT... before you call me to celebrate, READ ON...)

so why rush to the PC and make a blog entry? what's the big deal?

I should be happy... and I am. "BUT" there's more.

the good doc also informed me that I am the ONLY ONE taking MS this summer. SOLO ako. ONE ON ONE kmi ni Dra.Quijano. She was making an MS summer curriculum only for ME. and it starts next Monday, April 18.

Dra.Quijano is a great precept... if you're in a GROUP, 'coz there's "safety in numbers" and all that. if you havent had the pleasure of having Dra.Quijano as a precept, lets put it this way... by the time she's done with me, I'll be QUALIFIED to TEACH MS.

Oh Lord, give me strength...
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Oist mga peeps, kung may plano pa kyong lakad, this week is IT. 100% no time na ako for anything else pag nag-start na ang summer ko. I could only imagine what Dra.Quijano has in store for me... *shudder*
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MATS! FIRST DAY! GOOD LUCK/GOD BLESS! may you be surrounded by gorgeous guys and great bosses! hehehe (na-bura ko ata cell no. mo? d ko sure kung tama ung tnetext ko e, d ka nag-rrep. txt mo nga ako.)

---kzs---

What kind of soul...

You Are a Warrior Soul

You're a strong person and sometimes seen as intimidating. You don't give up. You're committed and brave. Truly adventuresome, you are not afraid of going to battle. Extremely protective of loved ones, you root for the underdog. You are picky about details and rigorous in your methods. You also value honesty and fairness a great deal. You can be outspoken, intimidating, headstrong, and demanding. You're a hardliner who demands the best from themselves and others. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

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ayan na, I've succumbed to a lazy blogger's idea of an entry... I took an online quiz and posted the results.
~ shows you how bored/lazy I am.
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I'm actually looking forward to summer school. This is bad... I must not get used to the idea of summer class. I might do this again next year for fun. crap.

At least I get allowance.

---kzs---

Panaghoy sa MANILA ZOO

eto na!...

isa sa pinaka-kwelang araw ng buhay ko.

ang araw na KUMPLETO ang kada sa gimik. (si mica nlang kulang... pinag-palit pa kc kmi sa Canada eh. MICA, COME BACK...!!! )

ang last exam day for the 1st year UST med pranings.

ang weekend before the repro exam ng mga UE peeps.

Ito ang araw na pinag-palit namin ang TAGAYTAY for MANILA ZOO.
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Meeting Place: Yulo's Dental Clinic
Grabe... ang usapan mga 10 am... mga 2 pm na ba tayo nka-alis? Ahh basta, ang alam ko lang gutom na ko...

sige, picture muna kayo

Berna, Shara, Mika, Joanna


Mika and Shara... ngiting Yulo Dental Clinic! hehehe

wala ako sa mga pics kasi kumakain ako ng ice cream... ang tagal eh, di na ko nkapagpigil-gutom. Nka-alis rin kmi after a few hours...

Destination: Dampa, Parañaque
Attendance: Mika, Isah, Shara, Kriszia, Nat, Berna, Kari, Mya, Rica & Joanna

Transpo: Isah, Kari, Berna- 3 cars convoy!

as usual, convoy = drag race... nagka-iwanan nanaman en-route to Dampa... muntik na kami ma-puntang airport direcho punta sa Dampa-HK. Buti nlang tama pa yung dinaanan namin...

Pag dating sa Dampa, syempre pictorials muna:


Isah & Mya

Mga Dampa "Pink Ladies"

Isah, Mya, Joanna, Mika
nandun ako sa end ng table kasama si Shara===>>> lumalamon, as usual.

Nang matapos ang pag-papataba namin sa Dampa, naisipan ng kada na mag-lakwatcha muna--

Malling? lagi nalang tayong nag-mmall...
Sine? Sine nanaman...
Tagaytay? sige! tagaytay! ~ay, may test kami ni Berna ng repro... di pwede...
so? san na?...
MANILA ZOO tayo! di pa nka-punta si Nat... seryoso? sige, tara!

Destination: Manila Zoo

Syempre dapat may picture ng Elephant...

Nat and Kari
hehehe background lang ang elephant... (at sino naman kya kumain ng klahati nung twin popsies?)

Tapos pic nung Zebra...

clockwise frm front: Kari, Rica, Mya, Mika, Shara, Nat, Kriszia, Isah
(malamang tinakpan ang Zebra...)

Eto na, at last! nakita namin ang lawa ng Manila Zoo, at di kami naka-tiis:


pink boat: estimated cargo wt- 450 lbs


red boat: estimated cargo wt- 390 lbs (daya! si rica at isah magaan)


picture pag-daan sa bridge



tama na kaka-pose! Ayan, bangga tayo!

Nag-sawa rin kami sa zoo...


E-GRP a.k.a. ~Nathaniel's Angels~
(isang G.F. for every day of the week, Rica excluded.hehehe)

After the Zoo Experience, tambay kami ng Baywalk up to 10pm ba tayo nun? Nagsi-uwian din sa pagod ang mga tao after that.
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*sigh* kya 3.0 lang Repro grade ko...

---kzs---

Empathize!

isah, salamat sa idea.
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I take the Renal removals Tuesday. Since most of my friends are born geniuses with innate "kasipagan"... they wont ever have to experience taking a removal exam. I am happy for y'all. Sobra.

BUT, I dont want to suffer taking a test alone. So I'm posting a mini "correlate quiz" here on my blog so that you'll know what you're missing. Nothing too hard, just some stuff that you may or may not know about me. This is all done in the name of FUN and MED LYF so pls answer it. And while you're taking my quiz, think about me and all the others taking removals... and PRAY for us.

KZS' CORRELATE QUIZ
(mpl to be posted after deliberations...)
*note* Kopyahan?... wag lang kayong pa-huli sakin

Take the Test!
===>> CLICK HERE <<===

ang ma-D.A. kailangan i-libre ako ng lunch para mapatawad ko ...

---kzs---

PRESSURE

Hay naku aubs, wla nanaman akong ma-isip i-blog. Punta ka nalang sa blog ni Joy, bka may bago...

I'm not much of a writer, I'm more of a reader. I only blog as a form of "quid pro quo"... I update, you update... and I get something new to read. hehehe
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I havent forgotten about my plans to create a blog entry about funkmaster "O". But I have to put it off for a while.... I have to follow my priorities first. Sorry Oliver.

PRIORITIES:

1. Red Cross (malas, cant get out of it...)
2. Renal (cant get out of this either)
3. Spongebob Squarepants The Movie (hehehe wla lang, trip.)
4. MS summer (I have to pass renal first, *sigh*)
5. Tagaytay (sana matuloy)
6. Laguna (sana matuloy din)
7. HK (bka sa sunod na sem break nlng)
8. Find a BF (preferably rich)
9. Have kids (preferably twins!)
... ... ... !!!

wahahahaha! joke lang po... bka gawin ko after ng Spongebob Movie or MS... or pag sinipag.

oh well....
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I dont know why I keep giving you peeps the material to tease me with... must be the masochist in me.
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SOMETHING NEW!!! gumawa pla ako ng Xanga account para lang mka-comment ako sa mga Xanga blogs na walang tagboard... para rin ma-link nyo na ako. Here's the add: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=kzs


---kzs---

BOREDerline Insanity

there is something about "vacations" that dont agree with me.

maybe coz for the past 4 years I've had a lack of it.

and once again... this year... *sigh*

dont get me wrong, I love a good long break as much as the next student, but the years I've had of straight studying made me a bit "time-intolerant".

I AM BORED AS HELL.

too much excess time, too little stress. what's a med student to do?

I need coffee.
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I had a nice surprise a few days back... a belated "gift". Thanks Phonezia. I've been watching to keep boredom at bay... but... I already finished 'em... hehehe. thanks again.
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I CAN GET MY CAR BACK WITHIN THE WEEK... YAY!!!!!! (hmm... just in time for Red Cross and Summer)
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My brain doesnt work as well as it should when there is a decreased secretion of... hehehe joke lng.

AAAARGGGGH!!!! I'm going nuts! My brain cant seem to function... I cant think in straight thoughts... cant BLOG in single subjects...

and if I have to watch another "7TH HEAVEN" episode... I'm gonna * * *...

I CAN'T GET @&^$!)*&^@$% 7TH HEAVEN THEME SONG OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!! its driving me freakn insane!

7th Heaven
When I see their happy faces smilin' back at me.
7th Heaven
I know there's no greater feeling than the love of the family
Where can you go? When the world don't treat you right?
The answer is home, that's the one place that you'll find.
7th Heaven
Mmmmmm, 7th Heaven
7th Heaven.

crap. mahawa sana kyo.


--kzs--

Third Time's the Charm...

I can't believe it!?!... I can't F*CKN believe it!? NOT AGAIN....!?!? AAARGGHH!!!!
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Most people can go through their whole LIVES without EVER experiencing it.

I guess...

but I'm not like most people.



NA-BANGGA NANAMAN AKO!!! waaaahhh!!!




bat ba lagi nalang ako na-babangga? may balat ba ko somewhere?! ano ba?! WHY ME?! kahit anong ingat ko mag-drive tinatamaan ako! may malaking TARGET ba na nka-drawing sa car ko? please lang... kaka-inis na... I dont even feel frightened of getting hit anymore. na-mamanhid na ko...




1st time - hit by a Toyota Van, I got right of way... dumirecho sya sa pag-turn w/o slowing down... he hit my RIGHT back door... my sis was in the back.

2nd time - hit by a JEEP, made me do a 90 deg. turn, dragged me a couple of feet... wrecked my car... mali daw inapakan nya, gas instead of brakes...

3RD TIME - got hit by a F*CKN truck! 12 wheeler raw ba? now my LEFT back door is WRECKED... that same sis was in the back.

at least this time my mom was in front with me... now she KNOWS it wasnt my fault. sa likod kami tnamaan eh. (I'm sick and tired of defending my driving skills each and every g*ddamn time I get hit... la naman naniniwala na di ko ksalanan eh... just coz i'm a girl etc etc...) BUT TWICE I get hit from the REAR, ako pa rin mali?!... and the f*ckn driver had the AUDACITY to ask if I was going to turn left to E. Rod... amp*, well duh?! pauwi na ko, I was going straight, you boob!!... I wouldnt be in the middle lane if I was gonna turn... (this happened yesterday, Saturday night, Araneta cor E.Rod)

in fairness, the truck driver admitted it was his fault... must've been my Dad shouting at him na "yung buong pamilya ko nasa sasakyan!" that scared him. They assured us that they have insurance and that they'll pay for my car's damage.
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Hoy Garet! Grabe naman, ang lakas ng radar mo! nadaanan mo pa ang nabanggang sasakyan ko nung Sabado! alam mo ba, nung paalis na kami, may nag-banggaan naman na dalawang Taxi sa likod namin? hahaha! kakatawa... at least nandun na yung imbestigador...

--kzs--